...how things change!?
Sometimes I think I am crazy. Sometimes my husband thinks I am crazy. Sometimes we are crazy together.
Well, for the few of you that read this, I thought I would keep you updated. . . we are NOT moving.
Before any of you think I am too crazy, here's how the story goes:
A few days ago, while looking through thousands of rental home listings, I stopped and for the first time faced the gnawing feeling my stomach kept having. Why was I so reluctant to move to Dallas? I just kept telling myself it was because I was afraid. Afraid of the cost, afraid of leaving my comfort zone, etc. But I consider myself pretty acquainted with fear and this just didn't seem the same.
I told my sweet hubster what I was feeling. I expected him to just reassure me that everything would be fine but he replied, that he was feeling the same way. So, with careful & prayerful thought and consideration, we both concluded that as odd as it may seem, Dallas is not the right place for us. We needed to stay here for whatever reason unseen and unknown to us right now.
I felt a HUGE sense of peace...like I could breathe again. BUT then I started to worry... what in the world am I going to do?! I want to get my Master's in something!!! I began looking into online Speech Pathology programs. In a round about way I realized, while I am changing things up, why don't I change my degree?!
You think I'm crazy don't you? I think I am crazy! In the end I found a career path that I feel is PERFECT for me. So I am going to start applying to online programs to get my Master's in Applied Behavioral Analysis with an emphasis in Autism. I am going to be a Behavioral Specialist and work with families and children who have autism or other behavioral/challenging disorders. I can't wait.
It is funny how things can change so quickly but be so right all at the same time. I am just grateful for the wonderful man in my life who is so supportive of me and anything I do. I love make decisions together. I love being supported.
Needless to say my family (mom especially) is very happy to have us stay. Now all we have to do is find a place to live! :)
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I'm so happy for you! It's fun to change things up, especially when it's the right thing to do. And I'm excited my favorite photographer will be around for a while! My sister just started talking about getting pictures with the fam so if you're ready for another adventure... : ) haha
ReplyDeleteyay, wow! Isn't it amazing that you have the spirit with you and you can be guided. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm excited for your new adventure! I'm glad you did what felt right and best for your family. And how great you get to stay home and near family now!
ReplyDeleteI think that's smart!! I feel very uneasy about things in my life and I think it's time for a change!
ReplyDeleteGood for you girl, do what the Lord needs you to do.
Kenz-Love this post. Love how in tune you are. :) I had a similar experience this weekend. The Lord works in mysterious ways, and His ways are always perfect for us, even if we can't see why yet. Happy for you. Love you
ReplyDeleteI'm not even mad about this! :D
ReplyDeleteha ha ha :) I heard David talking to Sam the other day and I couldn't believe that the decision took another surprising turn :) I like your new degree for a selfish reason--can't wait to pick your brain about everything you are learning.
ReplyDeleteIs it weird how the spirit can just make you feel sick to your stomach when he knows it isn't right for you. Your field of work sounds awesome!!! What an amazing job! Good luck and I hope everything works out for you guys!
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